This book is about the good, the bad and the ugly of spiritual transformation. It is my journey from seeking outside of myself to seeking within for inner fulfillment.
Except from book:
Seeking Sets You Free
The path to enlightenment is a courageous one. It is not for the fainthearted or passerbyers. It is for intense seekers. One must be able to endure the hardships of the soul as it undergoes intense spiritual surgery to remove the cancerous ego. Seeking has to take up residence in your soul as your beloved. Only when seeking becomes your first priority does one become enlightened.
I have always been a seeker, even when I did not knowthat I was or what it was called. My whole life I have been searching for something more, something bigger that what I was experiencing. I was seeking for meaning, fulfillment and the purpose of my existence.
I sought it out in various places, people and things. I searched for fulfillment in relationships, jobs, materialism, escapism, food, shopping and too many more that I cannot even remember anymore. All my so called ‘searching’ lead to one dead end after the another, leaving me more unfulfilled and eventually into a big black hole of depression and despondency.
Despite my relentless seeking I never stopped. I kept going. I kept trying even to this very day. I have not give upmy seeking. Seeking has kept the fire of life alive in me. It sits inside of me like an un-dying ember fueling me to keep up the quest. Eventually through some hard knocks and lessons I realized I was seeking in all the wrong places (kind of like that song “I was searching for love in all the wrong places”) and through all the wrong things. None of these things were bringing me fulfillment only despair.They were only bringing me more and more pain, frustration and emptiness. Deep down inside I knew I was seeking to feel whole, complete and fulfilled.
It was only when I turned my seeking towards spirituality that I came to know I was in search of remembering who I really am.
My guru defines ‘seeking’ as “our inner most decision to be free, our inner most decision not to continue with the status quo.” When I heard this it all made sense to me. I had it all in life, physically and materially and still I felt dead inside. I could could not settle for a ‘normal’ life filled with complacency and mediocrity. I wanted an extraordinary life, a life of joy, bliss and excitement. After experiencing glimpses of spiritual awakening I came to realize that it is possible and we can be in joy and continuous wonder all the time.
The trick is, it has to come from the inside out, not the other way around.
Most of us seek fulfillment from the eternal sources which lead to more and more disappointments and tragedies.
Seeking is the act of continuously re-inventing yourself and aligning yourself to your highest possibility and potential.
To live a life of seeking is to not be afraid of re-building, re-inventing and re-strategizing yourself on a continuous basis. There are no restrictions on seeking, it is never to late. Even if you are on your death bed, you can be seeking. Seeking to awaken your consciousness. Seeking to obtain self-realization.
Seeking intoxicates you with your highest truth. It awakens you to the truth that you are a Divine being and your highest expression is possible. If you have been seeking then you can be sure that you have been graced with the ultimate gift of possibility. Seeking awakens you to you!